Just the title makes you go "eww."
My husband was gone for 10 days. I was solo, kid-wrangling and juggling and multi-tasking and going and blowing. And then, I had to put our oldest dog down.
I was pretty spent.
Hubby finally gets home and kid #1 starts barfing. Kid #3 barfs and has back to back to back diapers that would make your nose fall off. Kid #2 starts running fever. Hubby comes home early from his first day back at work because his stomach is in knots.
I wake up today with pinkeye.
Today, we're staying home. Groan.
It's like God said, "I'll take it from here."
"The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still." Exodus 14:14
Living in Texas, dry times are to be expected. Long periods of dryness makes your entire soul thirsty. It's like the parched Texas soil groans--and you can't help but groan with it.
This is how I've been feeling.
I opened the door to listen to the rain. "Chloe doesn't like the rain," Pierce replied.
No baby, she doesn't, but she's not out there anymore.
"Where is she?"
It's almost been a week. He is the first one to finally notice she's gone.
I'm praying for lots of rain. There is a 70-80% chance for the next four days.
I just want the dirt outside to be flooded.
I want my soul to be quenched.
Just wash me. Make me new.
All of me: my heart, my mind, my eyes and ears.
I am in need of some serious NEWNESS.
" In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans." Romans 8:26
I was sharing The Joy Dare with a friend the other day. Ann Voskamp wrote a great book called One Thousand Gifts. The premise is to write down and ponder all the things in your life that are gifts. When we do this and celebrate all the blessings in our life: found in God, in friends and family and in nature--we will be more joyful. If you can come up with just 3 things a day, in a year, you'll have documented 1,000 gifts. Ann has complied a calendar of prompts to help steer you in your joy dare. You can find the Joy Dare calendars and everything Ann Voskamp on her website: www.aholyexperince.com.
I looked up the October calendar.
Today's prompt was: 3 gifts undervalued.
I have been so focused on the crisis, the need, the lack thereof--that I have forgotten to see the gift.
My three gifts today?
1. Pinkeye. Yes, pinkeye. We often see sickness as such an imposition. Some terrible detour to our more important destination or task. But, sickness is very important in God's economy. It sidelines us. Makes us slow down . . . . because He wants to show us something. I got to take a sick day with my littles. Thank you, pinkeye!
2. Rain. Enough said. You can't ignore it. The smell, the sound, the nourishment. How it makes everything outside kinda come to a halt . . .
3. My salvation. Yep, Jesus is probably the most undervalued gift in my life (next to my husband.) I sink into the ordinary often. The mundaneness of life and days on end make me forget how extraordinary God is and the extraordinary gift I already possess. (My considerate neighbor over at neds-fox.com reminded me of this today. Thank you, Zena!)
For today, the groaning is over.
The rain, the pinkeye, a day to breathe and reflect--all that you can hear form my heart now is:
"Acknowledge and take to heart this day that the Lord is God in heaven above and on the earth below. There is no other." Deuteronomy 4:39