I totally forgot where I was going with this.

This post has undergone a complete metamorphosis the more I put it off . .

So, I was on track to write a poignant little ditty about the new year and the musings of Pee Wee Herman, but like most well intentioned things--LIFE got in the way.

Plans changed in the blink of an eye.

Forgive me for the silence.

Just when I caught my breath from all that was 2015 . . .

 

Six days into this new year my dear friend lost her husband. In the span of a few hours, she lost her best friend and her boys lost their dad.

Our little church is in tremendous flux. People are leaving, people are retreating and the future is quite uncertain.

Life at our home is in transition as all three boys are stepping through the door of a birthday--which ushers in growth and change. They are acting different and becoming different.

I'm here trying to roll with the punches.

And here I wake up and David Bowie died? What!?

Trying to figure out my response and responsibility in it all . . .

 

Change. Why is it so dang hard? I mean, we know it's coming. It's inevitable. It can happen in a nano-second or slowly, right before our eyes. Change causes us suffer. We hate it. It's painful. The outside change, whatever it is; forces US to adapt.

If you think about it, change happens EVERY SINGLE time things don't go as planned. And that's often.

We must change our mindset, our perspective, our direction.

I just watched A Year In Burgundy with my husband. It was lovely. The way those winemakers love their lives, their craft. I've heard it said before, that one winemaker restated: "Vines have to suffer in order to produce good wines." The vines must struggle. That way they dig deeper. They are more firmly rooted.

To what are you rooted? How far? How firmly? How deep?

 

I'm taking inventory.

Who am I? Who is God? Who are my people? What should I do with all of this? What time is it?

 

Well, here's what I DO know:

1. "Good morning, I'm heeeere"--Pee Wee Herman speaking to his bike in Pee Wee's Big Adventure.

I am going to wake up every day and say, "Good morning Jesus--I'm heeeere." I am on board. I'm your girl. Help me to do what you want me to do. Help me to love my people. Help me to not make a total mess of things. (Or be an ass.)

Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” and I said, “Here am I. Send me!”  Isaiah 6:8

2. I am going to trust that God is who He says He is, and that He will make good on his promises.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.  Proverbs 3:5-6

3. I'm going to get rooted. It's time. I'm forty. I've aged well--a fine wine. It's time to change: so I become my real self. My best self.

Out of my distress I called on the Lord; the Lord answered me and set me free.
The Lord is on my side; I will not fear. What can man do to me?  Psalm 118:5-6

 

I guess I got where I was supposed to go with this. May you greet today with a smile, breathe deep and exhale the goodness of your life today. May you look heavenward and know: all is well.

Meredith

P.S. Pray for the Wyatt family for the foreseeable future: Carrie, Brayden and Colton. Thank you.

 

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